I'm 34 and my biggest fantasy in life has never been fulfilled. Its sad when I think about it really. Some things are so hard to find...especially those things that we need the most.
I'm a normal woman, a little on the shy side and if I'm completely honest with myself and you, I suppose I'm a little on the boring side. At the same time, there's a wild, raw, needy part of myself that has been hidden and unattended to for far too long. While I'm desperate to find someone to fill that void, I'm so embarrassed to talk about it to anyone. In truth, I think I associate my needs with someone who maybe has a low sense of self-worth and yet I don't. So talking about it makes me worry people will reach untrue conclusions about me. So what are those needs....

Spanking. Pure and simple...sort of. Spanking under the right circumstances because while I'm so in need of having this experience, I'm super-pain-phobic. And I don't find uncontrolled anger or meanness appealing. I don't want verbal or physical consented mistreatment but caring instruction. Think of a father punishing a child for a very specific reason, with all the anticipation leading up to it, followed up by consoling and then a great orgasm. I know it will hurt some but without the sting, there would be no dread or anticipation of it coming.

Ram